The Re-Education of My Life


05th Apr 2012

Thursday // 2pm // 2 years ago

Day Four: Daily Devotional

April 4, 2012

 I Can’t Think Straight

“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.” James 1:5 (NIV)

I felt like I was walking in circles. My to-do list was long but I was accomplishing nothing. Nothing except shifting messes from one place to another and getting increasingly frustrated with myself.

Why couldn’t I think straight!? Urgency pulled and tugged, creating anxiety, yet I couldn’t get myself unstuck.

Many days I just plod along, hoping that somehow I’ll pull myself together and move forward. Sadly, my success rate with that approach is pretty low. Just doing more doesn’t help when my mind is scattered.

My biggest challenge with bringing order to my day and home usually isn’t found externally. It’s not too much to do, too small closets, or too many kids running around. Yes, those can be challenges, but they aren’t the biggest one.

My biggest foe is my cluttered mind. When I don’t think straight, I can’t solve problems.

Our minds are the command center of managing our lives. We may blame outside pressures for our problems, but many times the issue is within: minds that aren’t seeking help from the Source of all wisdom and clarity—God.

As Christians we have a direct line to God’s wisdom as our key verse promises. Plus, we have the Holy Spirit living in us who is our Counselor (John 14:26), and as the Bible tells us, we have “the mind of Christ” (1 Cor. 2:16). That’s a powerhouse of help!

But we don’t always tap into this Source of help. And when we do, if the truth were told, we often don’t really expect God to answer us. Others, those super-spiritual types, may hear from God. But not me, we think.

And so we struggle with problem-solving. We are frustrated at our circumstances, confused about what to do, discouraged and defeated. It’s a downward cycle.

For years, I never even thought to ask God for help making little decisions. Maybe I’d bring Him in on the big decisions, but the little ones I figured I could handle myself. Oh, how I missed out on so much clarity and focus.

If you are having trouble thinking, ask God to clear your mind and direct your decision-making. Then trust He is doing just that. Once you ask God to speak to you, expect it to happen. This expectation is crucial to hearing from God. Here what James 1:5-8 says:

“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.”

If you do start to doubt, then take that thought captive and choose to trust that God has spoken. Listening and trusting are important parts of prayer, because prayer is not always to get God to move.

Many times, prayer positions us to hear God’s direction on how we should move. Through prayer, we align our hearts to God’s heart, and things become clearer.

Is the clutter in your mind making it hard to think clearly? Perhaps one of the problems is you’re trying to figure things out on your own. We’ve been given the mind of Christ and we are offered the wisdom of God. Let’s ask and receive.

Lord, You know how hard it is for me to focus sometimes. It’s hard to figure out what needs to be done. I just feel overwhelmed and discouraged. I know You aren’t a God of confusion, so I ask for Your wisdom and clarity to help bring order to my chaotic mind. In Jesus Name, Amen.

My Thoughts:

This devotional touches home. I always feel like I can fix stuff on my own and that’s one of the reasons why I am doing this 30 day challenge where I have to pray for an hour daily. I know I need to pray more and that it is the solution to a lot of the stuff that I am dealing with.

I am praying that God gives me the direction to move in regards to my life and to help me make good choices with this next phase. Even though I went to college and graduated I still am unsure of what exactly it is I am suppose to do with my life. I have so many different interest, however, one interest does not stick out more than the others as being a viable career option.

Hopefully through this cleanse, I can get some clarity and focus.

03rd Apr 2012

Tuesday // 10pm // 2 years ago

Day Three: Update

So today was not bad. I had crazy energy and have been up since midnight. CRAZY?! So worked extra hours today, but the whole day, I was going insane because of the smell of foods around me. This juice fast is rough. I’m not even hungry. It’s just the smell of the foods, make me want to eat it or anything.


  • Gym cycling class (1hr)
  • Walked 10min
  • Drank 1/2 gallon of water
  • Drank a glass of beet, carrot, apple and kale juice It was really sweet.
  • Soup (vegetable broth, with seasonings) I added lemon and cayenne Eating this made me crave food a ton, but it was SO Good!
  • Daily Devotional
  • Prayer (not done yet)

So as you can see, I am on track for the most part. For whatever reason though, I feel exhausted. But the best news is *drum roll*I LOST 2.5LBS !!!!

SW: 210

CW: 207.5

03rd Apr 2012

Tuesday // 7am // 2 years ago

Daily Devotional: Pray Before Answering

by Joyce Meyer - posted April 03, 2012

For [of course] I will not venture (presume) to speak thus of any work except what Christ has actually done through me [as an instrument in His hands] to win obedience from the Gentiles, by word and deed. —Romans 15:18

The Father has sent to us a Counselor—the Spirit of Truth—who teaches us all things (See John 14:16-17, 26). As we stay sensitive to God’s leading, He will direct us. If we pray before speaking, the Lord will keep us from over committing our time, and from misleading people.

Jesus took time to listen to the Father before speaking. God will also give us “a word in due season” for somebody (see Proverbs 15:23), if we listen for His input before we give what we may think is a right answer. God will give us the right words to say, if we expectantly listen for His direction before we speak.

My Thoughts:

What perfect timing. I was just talking about prayer and how I need more of it. I don’t know why I haven’t been able to jump start that. However, this morning, when I woke up, I began my morning with some praise and worship music so I believe that was good. If I could get this prayer thing on track, I would be good to go.

Tagged as: Prayer. God. counselor.

03rd Apr 2012

Tuesday // 6am // 2 years ago

Day Two: Update

So yesterday was my first workout day since being on the juice fast. I gotta be careful with that because I am essentially fasting and not taking in the necessary calories to sustain a proper workout at the gym. My legs were fatigued by the end of the workout as well the rest of my body. I came home and went straight to bed.

I did some research on it and people say that is completely fine to workout while on a juice fast however, it should be limited to 30-45 minutes. Oops! I did 1hr 20 minutes.

Here is what I did:

  • a body sculpting class (1hr)
  • a 20 min walk on the treadmill
  • drank one bottle of water
  • drank a glass of carrot juice
  • had a few grapes and a slice of mango
  • completed my daily devotional
  • slacked on my praying (only prayed for maybe 10 min)

Overall, day two was a success as far as the amount of workout I was able to complete. However, that workout regime will be cut down to the recommended 30-45min cardio (walking) with an additional 15 min of situps and stuff like that. I really gotta step up my water intake. The one bottle definitely was not enough considering I worked out and all. I am just not hungry AT ALL. It’s crazy. I only desire junk food, but as far as actual hunger, I have NONE almost. The prayer thing…hmph. Idk. Day three is another day, we shall see.